Monday, March 7, 2011

Crying out

I was a mess all morning. I'd waited for this day to arrive for months but never expected to feel like this. It was my last day at work. I should be giddy with excitement but instead my heart hurt.

I held it together as I put on my makeup and got dressed. As I made the bed, the tears began to flow.

This is so silly. Why am I so sad when I'm getting exactly what I wanted?

On the drive to work the tears started up again. Lord, I can't do this. Please give me your strength to get through this day. I've got to keep it together!

It was 'business as usual' with the exception of the well wishers stopping by my desk to say their goodbyes. I said my farewells without shedding a single tear or feeling sad. He had done it! God had strengthened me through the day.

As I drove away from work for the last time, the tears began to flow once again. Thoughts of all the great people I've met and the friendships I've made consumed my thoughts. I'm so thankful for them.

So how did I make it through the work day? I didn't just pretend or put on a fake expression. God knew my heart was hurting and He surrounded me with people who were genuinely excited about my new opportunity in life. God gave me His strength through their encouragement while He covered me with His peace. When we're standing on the brink and feel that we have no control, God shows up! He infuses us with His strength and uses our weakness for His glory.

Do you feel out of control? Are you afraid of what's coming next? Unsure of your next step? Good! You're right where He wants you to be. God shows up in the 11th hour when we cry out to Him and believe that He is able. Are you crying out or just crying? Ask Him to give you His strength. You'll be amazed by what He'll do...

Be blessed,
Jennifer

“As for me, I call to God, and the LORD saves me. Evening, morning and noon I cry out in distress, and he hears my voice.” Psalm 55:16-17

0 comments:

Post a Comment