Monday, January 4, 2010

Calculated Risks

Okay, I’m just going to admit it…I’m a weenie baby! It’s my natural tendency to be fearful of things that are unfamiliar to me or that have even the slightest chance of danger. I’m not sure where the fear comes from, I’ve been fortunate to have only had a few mishaps in my life that have caused physical pain. But the fear has been there for as long as I can remember, it’s not debilitating but it is very present and at times can steal my peace.

In spite of my own personal wrestling match with fears, I recently celebrated a personal victory. My family took a weekend ski trip in New Mexico. I don’t ski due to one of those little mishaps that I mentioned early that has left me with limited function in my right knee, but I was all for the change of scenery. On the first day that Greg and the kids were going skiing, Greg insisted that I drive them up the mountain and drop them off so that I could have the car for the day. My heart began beating faster as I thought about driving up and down the narrow, twisting, icy mountain roads…alone. Before I knew it I was sitting in front of the steering wheel watching my little family head toward the ski lifts. After a few prayers and some cautious driving I found myself once again at the base of the mountain. I had done it!

I know what you’re thinking, ‘okay…so?’ Conquering my fear of driving down the icy roads was a big thing, but it wasn’t the best thing. You see, as I was driving back to the hotel at the foot of the mountain I was given a special blessing. I was stuck behind a large RV that had been covered with snow and was driving about 25 mph instead of the 40 mph limit. I was driving patiently behind him, basking in my recent victory and telling God how much I appreciated Him bringing me down the mountain safely, when the RV suddenly sped up. As it did, the snow from the top of the RV blew up into the air, glistening in the morning sun and rested on my car. It was magical! It looked like sparkly fairy dust and dissolved as soon as it landed. I was mesmerized! It was as if God Himself were covering me with a blanket of peace and love that I could actually see. I was so in awe of that moment!

Not only did I have the victory of conquering a fear, I allowed myself to receive a bigger blessing than I could have ever imagined…a new experience with God! Sometimes we need to take calculated risks so that we challenge our personal boundaries. When we allow God to lead us outside of our comfort zone He will reward us for trusting Him. God had something to show me that day. He wanted to share the beauty of all He had created, give me a new appreciation for His majesty and reach me in a very personal way. God wants to do the same thing with you. He is longing to hold your hand as you trust Him to expand your boundaries. He’s waiting…what are you afraid of?

Be blessed,
Jennifer

“They will speak of the glorious splendor of your majesty, and I will meditate on your wonderful works.” Psalm 145:5

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